So, how did it turn out?
I lean slightly more toward the Radney Foster version. I think it might have to do with the fact that I've adored the guy for a really long time. I love Abra Moore's voice with his on this song. I just love it.
So here is the final tally, including my vote for Radney Foster:
Radney Foster: 15
The Kinleys : 15
Yep, we got ourselves a tie. I think this has happened once before on this blog, but I could be wrong about that! If you voted, thanks! Come back again on the 1st and we'll do it again with a different song, different singers!!!
In my last post I told you how J1 and were never an "item," but we talked all the time. Well, J2 and I didn't talk enough. I'm not sure exactly what happens in the brain when you decide you're dating, but it's like a trigger is pulled. I didn't want to be the insecure girlfriend, though I was totally the insecure girlfriend. I didn't want to tell him all the crazy things I was thinking. I guess I'd seen that work out not so well with Erika. Heck, even in hindsight I'm not real clear on what happened with this relationship.
But, let me try and pull it into some sort of focus. I suspect J2 was feeling really stressed. He was working, going to school part-time, and trying to date me (which, really, is a full-time job all by itself;). But, seriously, I think maybe he was embarrassed that his life was so hard, and he didn't want to unload his problems on me. What he didn't understand was that it would have made things so much easier if he'd just been honest with me about all the stress in his life.
Instead, I agonized over not hearing from him a week at a time. One of the girls across the hall posted an index card under my phone that read:
A watched teakettle (phone) never boils (rings).
She was so right. I'd spend hours not leaving my room hoping he'd call (he didn't) and then getting mad that he didn't call and that I didn't leave my room. Crazy thinking, I know. I even knew it at the time. But, I didn't want to call him. I wanted him to call me.
I think he was really much more mature about this whole thing and felt like we were good, we were okay, even if we only saw each other on weekends. He didn't feel the need to talk more often than that to feel like he was on solid ground. Little did he know who he was dealing with... or maybe he needed to tell me that's how he felt so I could feel steady, too. Truth was I felt anything but steady. It always felt like I was hours away from getting the Break Up phone call.
So, even though I had a boyfriend I really liked, I never felt confident. Or sure of where I was standing. I think if you'd asked him (before we hit that final straw) what he was thinking, it would've been this song. I have to say Life sure would've been easier if I'd known it was this song. He was always on my mind, too. And I would've done things very differently had I known I was on his...
Have you ever had a relationship fall apart with someone you really cared about because you didn't say all the things you should've said? You didn't tell them how you felt? They didn't know they were always on your mind?
If you're enjoying these posts, feel free to share your own Soundtrack. This isn't a hop. No requirements at all, but a suggestion to do it one song at a time. (If you participated in the hop several years ago, you can still do this. Just post them one song at a time, with the freedom to add more songs if you'd like.) I'll link to all participants at the bottom of each of these posts:
StMcC Presents BATTLE OF THE BANDS
Cherdo on the Flipside
Holli's Hoots and Hollers
THE DOGLADY'S DEN