tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8318801159753696568.post9050072220928250475..comments2024-01-01T10:05:13.685-05:00Comments on YOUR DAILY DOSE: THE END OF MY PIRATE DAYSRobinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14932408372240147454noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8318801159753696568.post-92022201340444226462010-04-23T22:00:31.528-04:002010-04-23T22:00:31.528-04:00You know what Tinkerbell still reads my blog I'...You know what Tinkerbell still reads my blog I'm not sure if that makes me angry or not. I don't know if she sits back and laughs or what. I tell the honesty of my dates though it doesn't make me look very bright. I'm beginning to think I shouldn't.Bathwaterhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18286545216706532921noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8318801159753696568.post-66510323847661598992010-04-22T19:26:53.171-04:002010-04-22T19:26:53.171-04:00Actually, I am 99% certain that my ex does not kno...Actually, I am 99% certain that my ex does not know about this blog site. He knows about my FB site, so I am careful about what I publish there, particularly since I created my fanpage, which is open to anyone. I actually exercised some caution in who I told about this site. I told some friends, some family, but no one who had ties to my ex.<br /><br />I was angry at my ex for a really long time, Tracy. And he was at fault for a lot of what went wrong with my relationship. He deliberately sabotaged my relationship and he was successful. However, it wasn't all his fault. If I had been a stronger person and been able to see the situation for what it was, it all would have gone down differently. It took me years to get perspective on it. And Right Guy never shared his reasons for bailing on the relationship, but I know what they were. He didn't want to do long distance. And he didn't want to be in a relationship with someone who didn't have a clear picture of anything. In other words, it was very stressful to him. He had some really major sh*t happening that he didn't ask for (it was just super bad timing) and it was too much. Sometimes, you can only handle so much crap at once. Once my ex really started "bringing it," I stopped being a good place and our relationship was just more stress in an already overstressed life. <br /><br />And then I made other choices after I moved to FL after he bailed. He went off the grid. Wouldn't take my calls, read my email, etc. In hindsight, I wish I'd waited it out. It might have taken a year, but I wish I'd waited it out. I didn't. I was bleeding out. And I met some guy and he was nice. I thought he was nice. I was wrong. He was just a more polished version of my ex. He fooled me for a long time. I never loved him but he kept applying the bandages. I thought it was better. I was wrong. Sometimes you just have to feel it. No bandages. Right Guy knew I moved on. He saw it on myspace. I didn't really move on. I just kept on going. But it looked like I moved on.<br /><br />After I broke up with Loser Guy, Right and I emailed again briefly. Right Guy emailed me actually. He said he missed me. I almost fainted. That was two years ago. I called him and got voicemail. I have spent a lot of time talking to voicemail. He called me back. I was doing lights for a community theatre gig. I forgot my cell phone at home. My stepdad answered it. He never answers my phone. It was Right Guy. He sent me a message asking who answered my phone. I told him. I never heard from him again. I know he didn't believe me. I know he thought it was Loser Guy. <br /><br />He doesn't read my email anymore. He doesn't answer my calls. You can miss someone until the end of time, but if you don't trust them, what good does it do you? He doesn't trust me. I am the girl who couldn't say "no" to her ex-husband, who couldn't stand up for herself, and steered our relationship (aka The Titanic) into a big ole iceberg. That is pretty amazing considering we live in the South.<br /><br />As for what you said about my ex -- he will always try to pull my strings. It's in his nature. The fact that I can sit back and say that "This might be the time to call his bluff," shows growth. That wouldn't have been an option before. I don't run around town ferrying them where they need to be. In fact, I rarely see them. I am choosing to distance myself because I know that he will always use them as pawns. I couldn't have done that before. I am doing the healthy thing FOR ME. I never chose the healthy thing for me before. It was always about what was best for someone else. <br /><br />I look at how long this comment is and think ~egads ~ I wish I had spell check. But I don't think I can blog about this again. Once has been traumatic.Robinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14932408372240147454noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8318801159753696568.post-80410723168782505832010-04-22T18:47:18.711-04:002010-04-22T18:47:18.711-04:00Robin! I think we have both been in the Twilight ...Robin! I think we have both been in the Twilight Zone! My heart sank to the floor when I got to the end.<br /><br />Have you ever heard the song Cannonball by Brandi Carlile? Trust me, it sums it all up!<br /><br />I will never forget the one that made me feel like I was born when I met him. <br /><br />I am sending you a big hug!<br /><br />p.s. My mom suffers from migraines as well. It is a very debilitating thing.The Novelisthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16966701772659997692noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8318801159753696568.post-56492295054306336472010-04-22T17:38:25.027-04:002010-04-22T17:38:25.027-04:00This post makes me angry and sad. Angry at your ex...This post makes me angry and sad. Angry at your ex, who is probably reading this blog anyways, because he has so clearly manipulated you and forced your hand. He still does, I think...you said you call the shots now but I remember you wrote a blog not too long ago about him and he yanked visitation rights away from you - HIS kids, not yours. That you are helping to raise.<br /><br />This post makes me sad because you are so worth having love and happiness in your life. What happened to Right Guy? Did he just disappear after you moved?Phoenixhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07477498671080132176noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8318801159753696568.post-58029288496672909712010-04-22T08:30:33.475-04:002010-04-22T08:30:33.475-04:00What a loser! Your ex seems like a bastard! Do wha...What a loser! Your ex seems like a bastard! Do what Sharon says and write about this! <br /><br />Do you know that Agatha Christie's first husband was a louse who manipulated and abused her and that is kind of how she began her writing career?<br /><br />Yeap, everyone who dies on the orient express or some other exotic location is her ex! Would you believe! I suggest that you use the same way to kill yours!Purple Cowhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11016727639028322093noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8318801159753696568.post-36130783449784696472010-04-22T01:08:21.301-04:002010-04-22T01:08:21.301-04:00well, whether or not your writing is strong or not...well, whether or not your writing is strong or not...have you considered finding mr. right/<br />just a question. who knows. Maybe he is in the same bind.<br />just a thought and hugs to you.Christinehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13708815560712267698noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8318801159753696568.post-58660554872582839982010-04-21T20:58:15.541-04:002010-04-21T20:58:15.541-04:00I'm not even going to bother with the videos. ...I'm not even going to bother with the videos. I think your writing is stronger without them. The videos are a crutch for you. You DO NOT NEED them. Be proud of yourself. This is great writing.Lira Kellermanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17642476041389723474noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8318801159753696568.post-81892990181081265762010-04-21T19:22:43.240-04:002010-04-21T19:22:43.240-04:00I really can't Sharon. I can barely blog abou...I really can't Sharon. I can barely blog about it. Give me another six years. Ten years seems to be my bounce back point.Robinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14932408372240147454noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8318801159753696568.post-11007812621023647102010-04-21T18:17:08.804-04:002010-04-21T18:17:08.804-04:00Oh, Robin. This makes my heart hurt for you. No wo...Oh, Robin. This makes my heart hurt for you. No wonder you have migraines.<br /><br />Make this a screenplay, or a short story. It is compelling dialogue.Sharonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02852119592451618703noreply@blogger.com